"Come and hear, all you who fear God,
And I will tell what He has done for my soul."
Psalm 66:16

I'M NEW TO GRIEF

Grief changes as you walk through it. If you are in the first, raw stages you might want to start at the beginning of my posts by clicking here. The current posts are written after much processing and trauma work were done. I’m praying for you; I’m thankful you found your way here.

Why You Are Here

   The week my son Tristan ran to heaven, I remember feeling desperate to hear from other Christians who had children that could not keep themselves alive. Surely, my husband and I are not the only ones? Surely, there are other children who loved Christ and lived for Him until they could not stand to live any longer?

    I could not find a single site for people like us: A mom and a dad with a family who loved the Lord, who leaned on God’s Word, and who never imagined that suicide could touch their lives.

   If you are that person, this website is for you.

When Your Hope is Wearing Thin

When Your Hope is Wearing Thin

Psalm 9:18 But God will never forget the needy;     the hope of the afflicted will never perish. I lost so many things when God took Tristan to heaven, but I gained a few things, too. One of the things God gave me was new eyes with which to read Scripture. I used to...

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When You Want to Quit

When You Want to Quit

    As we made our way to church I was despairing of life. Tristan used to be the whole reason for my sorrow. But now, six years later, God had added additional losses so that Tristan had become the first of many layers of grief. That alone made me mad. I didn't want...

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Part 2 Does the Silence of God Equal the Absence of God?

Part 2 Does the Silence of God Equal the Absence of God?

  Before we step into the second half of this conversation, let’s remember where we left off: Jesus endured real silence from God, but not because the Father abandoned Him. Now in Part 2, we’ll see why Jesus had to face that silence.  We’ll look more closely at...

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When Living Life is a Chore

When Living Life is a Chore

. I only meant to search and find the latest video on my phone. Google took that search into its own hands and popped up the "Best of November 2011!" Complete with video of the Happily Ever After that would never come to pass. I watched our old life back when you were...

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Before Him shall bow all who go down to the dust,
even the one who could not keep himself alive.

Psalm 22:29